I was speaking with my wife last night about the journey so far and how I felt it had gone, and what my current feelings were about closing out. It's funny because from an outside perspective, most people would assume that I, or someone who had completed a similar journey, would have had some sort of profound realization and explanation of the journey and the lessons that I've taken from it. To extent, there are certainly a variety of aspects throughout this experience that have created these types of realizations. However, life doesn’t work like that. An authentic understanding and portrayal of any human endeavour is one of the foundational elements required to establish a connection with others, and that connection is what creates the change we seek.

I could have turned around and expressed some profound insight that an Enlightenment-era philosopher had on life or a Stoic quote about aspiration, emotional fortitude, and balance. However, at this stage, I'm a little burnt out. That response would have been a generated output trying to convey a sense of profound spiritual enlightenment and understanding, but it would have been for her, not for me.

This distinction is crucial in understanding how our own internal happiness works. Once I have completed this blog, I will go back through and review every post I wrote. Following that, I will consolidate these lessons into a more digestible format in a book or something similar and then present it to the world in the hope that it will deliver the objectives of helping the world better understanding human happiness.

As I near the end and begin to close out, reflecting, reviewing the blogs, and continuing to grow the website, I am currently in a state of fatigue, to be honest. I've been spending on average 1-2 hours a day learning, compiling, and writing my blog posts. I have been consciously engaged in this journey since day one, and sometimes this constant feeling of pursuit, especially in questioning happiness and searching for more understanding, is exhausting.

I do think that I have found a multitude of things throughout this blog that may contribute to someone else's life for the better. I also know and feel that it has changed my life, my perspective, my understanding, and my beliefs in a profound manner that I somewhat didn't expect, but I am somewhat surprised at how much can be learned by learning more about myself. It is within understanding the journey I have had, my current feelings as I begin to close it out, and understanding of the reflection process in which I can allow time to truly review without any time constraint, that I will be able to formulate what, if any substantial influential elements are imbedded within all of this that will contribute to the world. That for me is a deeply rooted insight into an element of my happiness right there.

Thanks,

Dean